Dear Future Self,
As I am sitting here, I am often overwhelmed with what is in the future. What is coming, what could come, what probably won’t come but I’m going to obsess about it anyways. My middle name should have been worry, because I feel like its so much a part of who I am. My brain doesn’t stop at today’s tasks, I often bulldoze my thoughts with the what ifs and the worries of tomorrow. I know we aren’t supposed to worry, but it is ingrained in me. I want to feel prepared for what is coming, so I try and think of every possible scenario to mentally prepare myself. Have you learned how to not worry about the future yet? I hope that you are even braver than I am today. I hope that you have exceeded every dream and goal I have set for you. Are you happy? Have you fulfilled your purpose?
Dear Future Self,
Which moments do you look back on and think, that is it. That’s the moment my life changed. I know when I said yes to the man of my dreams, that was one of those moments. I know when those little sticks turned pink, those were the little moments. I know when I started my own little online boutique, that was one of those moments. I hope this little blog is one of those moments. For years, I have wanted to create a platform to help other women feel empowered in their own lives. I have been so scared to branch out beyond my own little Facebook page. The world can be a scary place, and at least there I can control my audience. There is something so paralyzing about taking a leap to follow a dream, at least for me it is. Anxiety gets the best of me daily, and I struggle feeling like I am worthy of ever reaching my dreams. I often wonder how on earth I can ever be good enough.
Dear Future Readers,
I bet there is a good chance that you feel this too. I have always dreamt of being a published author, and a motivational speaker. I choke up when I hear amazing speakers like Rachel Hollis and Ed Mylett and imagine myself in their space. They speak to my soul. I am always in awe of their ability to create and communicate, as well as their ability to reach people with their words in such a powerful way. I have a fire in my belly, and quite honestly I am over holding myself back. It would dishonor my future self, and I don’t want to look back and feel that my life was wasted. My experiences, my heartache, my struggles… all for what? Just to go through the motions of the daily demands of being a wife and a mother? Just to leave myself feeling sad at night knowing that fear was holding me back from living my very best life? That is the exact opposite of what I want for my future self! I want my future self to look back on her life and feel proud and like she did exactly what she was supposed to do, that she was exactly who she was supposed to be. I want her to know that she made a difference in other people’s lives. I want her to be happy. Oh goodness. Happy. That one little word brings me to my knees. Happy. One word. Basic terminology and basic emotion, yet something I struggle with daily. I want to live a long and happy life, and I want you to live a long and happy life. What does that look like to you? What can you do right now to be happy? I could always sit and say that I want to make my kids and husband happy and proud, but honestly it goes so far beyond making other people proud and other people happy.
I want to create a life of joy.
What is something you feel so passionate about that you can’t help but have a smile on your face or tears to your eyes when you think about it? Have you been like me and have become a pro-excuse maker, too afraid to jump in? Or are you already on an incredible path of feeling fulfilled in your purpose? If you are the former, I invite you right now to join me in a pact to jump in feet first! If you are the latter, tell me about your dreams below, because giiiirl I wanna hear all about your journey!
We were made to do hard things, sweet friend. I have complete faith that with hard work, we can literally do anything. Anxiety be damned. It is time to face our fears, kick those insecurities to the curb, and become the person we were created to be.
It is time to expose the Truth Within Her.